Tribute to 2010.

Well, here we are again on the eve of a new year and, some would say, a new decade (although I am of the camp that 2010 was the first year of the new decade).  The year kind of got away from me and, at the same time, seemed really long.  Not in a multiple life time like other years but in that January 1, 2010 seems forever ago.

The difference between this meme writing and previous years is that it is still daylight while I am writing this one.  Usually this is a right at the stroke of midnight event.  We, for the first time in 10 years, have plans for tonight.  I know.  One for the books. 

I predict this will be less emotional because of the time on the clock.  I get out all the five dollar words after dark.


1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Lots, mostly concerning the gym and the assorted adventures there.  Most of all, it’s a year later and I’m still going and still (mostly) enjoying myself.  On an unrelated note, I learned to make cheesecake properly.  Very unrelated.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I didn’t have any resolutions.  Seriously.  I think my resolution for next year is that I’m going to go out on a date.  A real date.  And keep myself open to possibilities.

3.  Did anyone close to you give birth?

No and in thinking about it, this was the first year in a very long time that there wasn’t a wee babe around.  2011 is plum full of babies though.  Not for me of course but I get a new niece this winter sometime!

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No, thank God.  Several friends have had huge losses so my prayer goes to them.

5.  What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

Ambition and courage.  I had very little of either in 2010.

6.  What countries did you visit?

Psh.  I barely left the state.  I did make it to Memphis (a whole ‘nother world!) and Tampa so at least I got out a little.

7.  What date in 2010 will remain etched in your memory and why?

Honestly, there wasn’t a single day or date that stands out.  This says something about my year.

8.  What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Running.  And all of the work that led up to it.  I wish I could say that I ran the 5k I was going to but…there’s always 2011.  I’m very, very proud of how far I have come, physically and mentally, since I started at the gym.

9.  What was your biggest failure?

 I think I would have to say that ill-fated job cooking for Amelia’s preschool/day care was a fail.  I only lasted 6 weeks and hated just about every minute of it.  It also ruined by opinion of day care centers in general.  On a lesser note, the job derailed my gym schedule and class and I don’t know that I have ever gotten completely back into the swing of things.

10.  Did you suffer illness or injury?

In September I had that girly fibroid thing that knocked me out for almost 6 weeks and made me anemic.  Didn’t see that coming.

11.  What was the best thing you bought?

My heart rate monitor. It was a game changer.  Also, the Wii so we could stream Netflix.  We may never have to leave home.

12.  Whose behavior merited celebration?

Once again, I am so proud of my girls.  Ella in particular had a rocky start to the year but with a wonderful teacher, some pharmaceutical assistance and great friends, we have made a ton of progress in her behavior and school performance.  But really, my girls are so good.  We can travel with no problems, sleep over, sit in church, eat at a restaurant without counter service, attend live theatre, meet elderly relatives and have new babysitters all with no problems at all.  I am so fortunate.

13.  Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Mostly, my own.

14.  Where did most of your money go?

Lifetime Fitness, et al.

15.  What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Running a mile.  I was more excited than I had any right to be.  That and getting close to being able to do a decent pull up.

16.  What song will remind you of 2010?

“My Life Would Suck Without You”.  Not the Kelly Clarkson, the Glee Cast version.  I loved the moment in the show and then downloaded the song that night.  It’s a great song when I run, 144 bpm which translates to 6.0 mph on the treadmill.  I can’t keep it up for more than 2 minutes but that song will always remind me of the year that I got stronger and faster.  And, it will always remind me of Molly, my trainer, who influenced me more this year than anyone has in a long time.

17.  Compared to this time last year are you:

happier or sadder?  Sadder.  I wish I could explain but I won’t.  Can’t.  I got off the anti-depressant as of March (due to the gym thing for sure) and my emotions are back full force.  I forgot that even commercials can make me cry and always have.  It’s just intense now.  Also, I find myself choking up at moments (concerning the littles…like going to the musical and school programs and fireworks) that Stephen should have been around to see and experience with us.  It’s killing me.

fatter or thinner?  Thinner!!!  Not a lot thinner but my body has changed for the better.  Again, for the money I spent and the time I had put in you’d think that I would break a few barriers that might mean having to buy new clothes but that’s okay.  I’m healthier and so much stronger, physically and mentally.  You can’t measure that on a scale.

richer or poorer?  Poorer.  By a lot.  Must remedy that situation.

18.  What do you wish you’d done more of?

Take advantage of really nice days.  I also wished I could have saved enough to get a really good camera.  Or, at least better than a point and shoot.  I think I’d be good taking pictures as a hobby.  Speaking of hobbies, I wish I would have spent more time in my sewing room.  I like it when I’m there…I just don’t make a habit of it anymore.  Also, we should have gone back to Iowa more often to see our friends.  We are so happy when we’re there.  I don’t know why we don’t do it regularly.

19.  What do you wish you’d done less of?

Waiting for my next moment alone and just do more with the ones that I got.  Being alone, mostly, makes me want to take a nap.

20.  How will you be spending Christmas?

In 2011?  Hard to say.  I can’t imagine it will be much different from this year.  I hope we go back to being snowed it.  2009 Christmas was the best ever…just us.

21.  What would cheer you up today?

It would take a lot to cheer me up today.  I could use some pampering.  A foot rub.  A head rub.  Something that’s just for me.  Barring that, a windfall of some sort would ease the tension a bit.

22.  Did you fall in love in 2010?

Yes.  With our new baby kitty Priscilla.  We adopted her from the humane society in September.  She’s my buddy.

23.  How many one night stands?

This question again?  None.  I’m way to chickenshit for that.  I had the chance once but didn’t take it which turned out to be a very good thing.

24.  What was your favorite tv program?

Glee!  Again.  Love, love, love that show.  Also, The Biggest Loser has new meaning for me.  I can’t stand the fat people crying thing (they all have some sort of issue that I suppose makes for good tv) but what I really want to see is more of the in-gym training.  I have seen or have done all of what they do and I have a new respect for really how hard it is.

25.  Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I’ve said this before but no.  I don’t feel that hating anyone is a good use of my emotional energy. 

26. What was the best book you read?

This is an easy one:  The “Vampire Academy” series by Richelle Mead.  Actually, she’s my new favorite author.  She has three different series and I love them all.  (yes, I know they are written for young adults but I can’t help myself…much like Glee!)

27.  What was your greatest musical discovery?

That Ella loves Tayor Swift.   And Dolly Parton.  And Madonna.  I’m so glad to be over the Children’s music genre.

28.  What did you want and get?

A nook e-reader.  I found my love of reading again.  Also, Amelia got out of my bed so my nights are my own again.

29.  What was your favorite film of this year?

“Toy Story 3” and “Eclipse”

30.  What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?

I turned 35.  My very good friends took me out to Dave and Buster’s where we ate yummy food, had multiple fruity drinks and played lots of games.  And laughed.  A lot.  It was a really great birthday.

31.  What one think would have made your year immeasurably more pleasurable?

Not having to worry so much. 

32.  How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?

I’m getting braver with the cleavage.  If you’ve got it, flaunt it right?  It helps that I have a visible clavicle now.

33.  What kept you sane?

Sweating and stretching and running and pushing myself.  By working so hard that all I could think about was the task at hand and not all the other junk going on and being able to focus.  That, and escaping into books again. 

34.  Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Fancy?  Again with the fancy.  Matthew Morrison and that wolf boy from the Twilight movies. 

35.  What political issue stirred you the most?

It angers me that internet comments on ANY news story are written by people obsessed with blaming every worldly wrong on our president.  Dude’s doing the best he can. 

36.  Whom did you miss?

I still miss Stephen but time has changed the ache somewhat.  Oddly, I miss him more as a father than as a husband.  I feel like time wouldn’t have changed us but the girls are changing every day and he is missing it.  And they are missing him.

37.  Who was the best new person you met?

Hands down, Molly.  Completely changed my life and I’m not sure that she knows it.

38.  Tell us a valuable life lesson learned in 2010?

No matter what is asked of you, you can do it.  And more.  Maybe not for very long but just the effort will prove that you can.

39.  Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

“We belong together now/Forever united here somehow/You got a piece of me/ And honestly/ My life would suck without you” 

Here’s the thing:  It’s not just about Molly or the gym but it’s about all the people who came into or returned to or stayed in my life.  A huge part of who we are is who we choose to surround ourselves with.  I am a better person because of all of those people.

So there it is: 2010.  I definitely feel more than 2009.  Like I said last year, 2009 was very much “meh”.  This year brought new things and new friends and some new experiences but mostly we just made our ground a little more solid in places and broke new in others.  I have much to be grateful.


2 thoughts on “Tribute to 2010.

  1. SO profound, my dear friend!! Thank you for speaking right to my very core.

    Sending you and the girls much much MUCH love!!! May 2011 bring you sweet adventures, more grounding, wonderful blessings, and may it be filled with peace and understanding.


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